I have so many things to do but I started doing none. Sometimes, I honestly think if life is still worth living. Waking up everyday feels like an obligation and it is tiring. Not just literally but spiritually tiring. (More like exhausting?) I honestly got nothing to be excited about. As I grow older, I feel like everything just happens and whatever those are, I have no choice but to accept it. It is like everything is being forced into me and I have no option to say no. Do I just have to suck it up like I’m completely fine with it and act like everything is my liking when it is not? No, but why am I doing the other way around? Suffocating? Definitely yes.